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A Backward Glance

The wind has been howling here in Middle Tennessee. We had big giant thunder-boomy storms night before last. It's dark and scary-looking outside. When it gets this way, generally me and The Candyman snuggle together and in unison say, "Thuuuuuuuuuunder Stoooooorms" because, well, that's just what we do. Actually, the back story is that it's one of things we both listed as "sexy" on our Match.com profiles. So when it's thundering and stormy outside, it's sexy inside. *wink wink nudge nudge*

So when I get woken up by wind and rain and all that and I cannot get back to sleep I'm certainly not thinking sexy thoughts, I'm thinking about these and how many I will need in order to get all my crap from here to Charlotte on Saturday. SATURDAY!!! I'm leaving Nashville on Saturday! So weird.

I completely underestimated the amount of crap in my office that is indeed mine to take along with me. Personal files and folders and such. My space heater. Multiple cans of spray paint used in my home decor "oh my God, the photography sample from China is the wrong color and photography starts TODAY!" emergencies. I keep copies of the trade magazines that my product was published in. Last month I got a cover shot. I mean, I certainly don't want to throw that away now, do I? I don't. I really don't.

My car is going to be jam packed with sewing gear, clothes, and The Kitty.Sigh. That damn cat is going to howl all the freakin' way there, I'm sure. I can't kitty-tranq her because she's pretty old and the vet is worried it might have some adverse affects. Adverse affects? What if her constant crying over the course of seven hours leads me to toss her out the window on I-26? Isn't THAT an adverse affect?

I've got trailer delivery set up, but I'm worried about where they will be able to park it since the other tenants of the house will be moving out. I've got movers planned, but I mistakenly set the time up an hour earlier than I should have. Waiting for them to call me back to confirm the revised time. I've got all the utilities taken care of, but I feel like I'm missing something and just I don't know what it is. I hate that.

So when the thunder storms and wind wake me up these days, I lie in bed thinking how I will pack my car. Where will our sofa go in the new house? Which room should be the sewing room and which should be The Candyman's office? Can we afford a fire pit for the back yard? We have to buy a new bed. When will I do that? Will the money be an issue? Where am I going to go work out? Will I meet new people? Will I find interesting and fun friends? Will our neighbors be cool? Will we want to buy this house? Do we want to have a baby? Will I have to find a new "normal" job or can I be an entrepreneur? Where can I find a cheap dress form? Is it possible for me to reupholster my own couch? What should I get The Candyman for Christmas? 

I tried watching a little TV. You'd be surprised at what is NOT on at 2:15am. Then I tried reading. I started to drift off, so turned out the light and again, laid there wondering about packing and unpacking the house and if my broken paw is going give me a nervous break down in all this. No bueno. 

And then I started thinking about my job. Sigh. The job. Six years. SIX YEARS! I've been doing this job for SIX YEARS! It's the longest I've held any position. It's the job I've loved to hate an hated to love. I've worked countless hours above and beyond a 40 hour work week. I've cried. I've laughed. I puked my brains out on an eight hour flight from New Delhi to Frankfurt. I've eaten beef tendon soup and fried chicken knuckles. I've met some incredible people and done some incredible things.  I've been able to visit:

  • The Great Wall of China (twice, Beijing, China)
  • Tianeman's Square (Beijing, China)
  • The Forbidden City (Beijing, China)
  • The Terra Cotta Soldiers (Xian, China)
  • The Lama Temple (Built during the Qing dynasty, the Lama Temple is the most important Tibetan Buddhist monastery in Beijing, China)
  • Huaqing Hot Springs Palace (Xian, China, famed for both its natural hot springs and the love story of Emperor Xuanzong (685-762) and his concubine Yang Guifei in the Tang Dynasty (618-907))
  • The Taj Mahal (Agra, India)
  • The Agra Red Fort (Agra, India)
  • The Jaipur Palace (Jaipur, India)
  • Wong Tai Sin Temple (Hong Kong)

And seriously, countless other places that I happily have photo-logged over the course of time. I am so lucky. Most people only dream of visiting these places and I got to do it all on someone else's dime (for the most part).

But it's still sad to think about how much work I've put into this job and this company. Those of us who has been "asked" to leave are feeling a little out of sorts. I've been here for six years (SIX!), another for eight and another for ten. How do you walk away from that without having some sort of feelings about it. You can't. You shouldn't be expected to. My office is looking quite barren and a little forlorn. The samples have been rerouted up north. My shelves have been cleared out of my hoarders collection of catalogs, fabric samples, quote sheets, you name it. It feels a little pathetic.

But in cleaning out everything, I came across some memories that I thought I might share - paying homage to the good times this job has afforded me. So before I look forward to to my new home, new experiences and new life, I need to take a quick look back at the good times.


Your friendly neighborhood butcher. Dongguan, China 2008.

Right before the start of the Chinese New Year fireworks show over Victoria Bay, Hong Kong 2007. What a show!!! You know the Chinese invented fireworks, right?

Me with my old boss at a glass factory in Shenyang, China 2005. Scary looking, right?

Freezing my ass off outside the Musee d'Orsay in Paris, France 2007.

Kick-ass mummification at The Louvre, Paris, France 2007.

The Hooka Pipe, New Delhi, India 2006. Apple herb, folks. Smoking apple herb.

Strange and wonderful fruits, Saigon, Vietnam 2008.

Look ma! No hands! Street kids earning some extra dough by playing with deadly snakes. On the road to Agra, India, 2007.

Wong Tai Sin Taoist Temple, Hong Kong, 2005.

Perched on the black onyx throne at the Agra Red Fort. See the Taj Mahal in the background? Agra, India 2007.

Sunset somewhere in northern China. I seriously have no idea where I was. 2006

My fave travel pic of all time. The Taj Mahal, Agra, India, 2007.

Mmmm. Goose parts for lunch. ALL the parts. ChangAn, China, 2005.

Additionally, all this travel made me a bazillionaire in terms of frequent flier miles. I took me and The Candyman to Hawaii, first class for FREE. Our honeymoon trip to Mexico was FREE. I've brought friends and family to see me, for FREE. I won't complain about that at all. However, I will miss it. :) I'll miss a lot of things about this job. What I won't miss? The stress, Louts Notes, my Dell Latitude X300 laptop circa 2004, conference calls, staff meetings or Title 20. So there.

Oh, and before I forget, the winner of the sign contest from last week is Ashely, from Our Rookie Year.

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Reader Comments (3)

Like you, I have mixed emotions about all of this, but I am most definitely looking forward to you two being only 3 hrs away!! Please, please, please be careful on the trip eastward (what with an overloaded car, yowling cat, etc.) !

October 26, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterMom

I well rememeber my drive from IN to NC with a yowling cat. She yowled the whole way. But at least Richard was with me, so he could be in charge of cat wrangling.

I love the pics. And in the hooka pipe pic, the shirt you're wearing? I have that one now! You passed it on to me!

October 26, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterGEW

What an amazing ride. Grr to how corporations can treat some employees and remaining hopeful for the next step for you. Choose hope right?

October 26, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterChic 'n Cheap Living

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